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>
> AN: Since I'm going on vacation for a couple of days, I'll be slow
in
> replying to feedback.
>
>
>
> TITLE: "I'm Still Loving You"
> AUTHOR: Vid
> PAIRING: Harm/Meg, Harm/Mac UST
> CATEGORY: fluff, romance
> DISCLAIMER: JAG belongs to Bellisario Productions, DPB and CBS
> TIMELINE: Season 5, starts 2 months after Harm returned to JAG from
> flying.
> FEEDBACK: unless it's flames, will be very gratefully accepted.
>
>
> WARNINGS: !!!!THIS FIC IS NOT FOR HARM/MAC SHIPPERS, NOR FOR MAC
FANS!!!!!
> If you read the warning, ignore it, read the fic anyway and then
even
> complain or flame, you will be labeled as the village idiot.
>
> Season 5 was a bad time for Harm and his fans because of how he was
> treated by his best friend for daring to go back to what he was
born
> to do. This fic contains Mac bashing, but since it's following
canon
> on her actions and that TPTB themselves actually bashed her with
how
> she treated Harm, it's not inappropriate...
>
> Also there is some language that is not appropriate for younger
readers.
>
>
> AN: I'm going back to my roots wih this fic. As some still active
JAG
> fans I've started out with being a Harm/Meg shipper and never
stopped
> being one, just lost hope of us ever getting Meg back, her and Harm
> together and all that sizzling chemistry and deep connection that
they
> had back on the screen.
>
> Dedicated to all fellow Harm/Meg shippers who are still out there
and
> still reading fiction. Also dedicated to Tracey Needham who brought
> the wondeful character Meg to life and did such an amazing job at
it.
> Semper Meg!
>
>
>
> SUMMARY: when a man is forced to move on for his own good, it
doesn't
> mean his life is over. Maybe it's just beginning...
>
>
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>
> Harm was feeling like shit.
>
> It's been 2 months since he returned to JAG from his stint at
flying
> because he was once again forced to abandon the job he was born
for.
>
> Instead of blood he had jet fuel and ice water in his veins.
Instead
> of normal vision he had HUDs and a targetting retticle.
>
> He had flying in his genes. And the woman he only recently called
his
> best friend tried to prove to him every day that she resented him
for it.
>
> After 2 months of having her new-found closeness to that smug
bastard
> Gumby constantly rubbed in his face and regretting ever having
> returned to JAG, Harm gave up. The fact that Mac liked to pull her
new
> rank on him over everything also didn't sit right with him. They
were
> friends once and he never pulled rank on her when he was the senior
> officer, but she was doing it now constantly.
>
> He wasn't going to fight to regain his friendship with Mac anymore.
>
> If she wanted to be his friend again, then she will have to make
the
> effort from now on.
>
> With that new determination in mind he looked at his watch,
noticed it
> was already quitting time, cleaned his desk and left for home.
>
> ----------------------
> ----------------------
>
> 2 MONTHS LATER
> JAG HQ
> FALLS CHURCH, VA
> 1250 ZULU
>
> Full Commander Harmon Rabb came whistling into his office, 10
minutes
> early as was his normal standard for the past few months and with a
> decidedly cheery disposition.
>
> He greeted his co-workers friendly, he even sent a friendly smile
> towards Mac, who was puzzled over the change in her former
partner's
> mood for the past few months.
>
> Her plan wasn't working. She wanted to hurt him as much as he hurt
her
> when he went back to flying to pay him back, even though Harriet
tried
> to make her understand that that way of thinking was really
selfish.
> Harriet tried to tell her that she was in the military and people
get
> reassigned to other posts all the time, so she shouldn't have
expected
> to remain partners with Harm for the rest of their lives. Mac
didn't
> listen to her and went on with her plan. Then she included even
Brumby
> in it. She actually couldn't stand the smarmy jerk, but she wanted
to
> make Harm jealous, because she knew how much Harm had always hated
Brumby.
>
> Boy, did those two plans backfire on her!
>
> All she did was alienate the man who was the best friend to her and
> get stuck with a Aussie playboy who thought he was the God's gift
to
> women. He was actually extremely annoying and wouldn't take no for
an
> answer. She also couldn't press legal actions or report him because
> everyone could testify that she encouraged him and definitely
didn't
> reject him. She was in deep and it was all her own fault. Why could
> she never learn?
>
> ----
>
> Harm was feeling extremely good, better than he had in 3 years!
>
> He reflected back on the past two months. Since he had decided to
move
> on his life was much nicer to live.
>
> Just two days after he made the decision he experienced something
that
> changed his life. For good. And he knew he would never regret his
> decision, as hasty as it may seem to some people.
>
> He wanted to share his happiness with everyone he knew, but on the
> other hand he wanted to keep it to himself, like a precious secret
> that no-one but him and few select others outside his job knew
about.
>
> He booted up his computer and got to work, eager to get done with
his
> paperwork so he could go home on time.
>
> ----------------------
> ----------------------
>
> A MONTH LATER
> JAG HQ
> FALLS CHURCH, VA
> 1705 ZULU
>
>
> A tall, blonde, female Navy Lieutenant in her dress blues entered
the
> JAG bullpen, looking around with the air of a first-time visitor.
>
> Mac, who was the closest to the newcomer, approached the young
woman.
>
> "Do you have an appointment, Lt.?" she asked.
>
> The Lt. quickly looked at Mac's rank insignia and stood at
attention.
> "At ease" said Mac.
>
> "No, Ma'am, I'm here to pick up Commander Rabb."
>
> "Pick him up?" asked Mac who was now scowling.
>
> "Yes, Ma'am, we have a lunch date." she was receiving the hostile
> vibes Mac was sending out quite clearly.
>
> Mac looked at the younger woman's tags and noticed the name 'Rabb'
> standing there. This mystery was getting stranger by the minute.
>
> "Are you the Commander's relative, Lt. Rabb?" wanted Mac to know.
>
> "Yes, Ma'am." was all that the young Lt. offered.
>
> Looking at the Lt.'s sleeves she noticed the JAG insignia there.
The
> woman was a lawyer and seemingly quite experienced and competent at
> that. She didn't offer any more nor any less than what was needed,
nor
> did she even so much as flinch under Mac's interrogation.
>
> "What kind of a relative?" persisted Mac. Harm had never mentioned
any
> other relatives aside from his immediate family and his Grandmother
> Sarah. Mac didn't have a clue who this woman was and that bothered
> her. She wanted to get to the bottom of this.
>
> "Has the Commander ever mentioned me, Ma'am?" answered the Lt.
with a
> question.
>
> "I asked the question first. You WILL answer." Mac was getting
angry.
> This newcomer was quite tight-lipped and very uncooperative.
>
> "Am I under arrest for something, Lt. Colonel? Because otherwise
you
> can't order me nor force me to answer such personal questions. I'm
a
> lawyer myself and I know my rights. And if the Commander has never
> mentioned me, then I am not in the liberty to specify." even
though it
> was said politely it was clear to all, who were watching the
> confrontation, that the young Lt. was getting angry herself.
>
> By now all work had stopped as everyone was watching the battle of
the
> wills. The silence brought the Admiral out of his office and he
> immediately recognized the visitor.
>
> "Lieutenant!" he boomed with a pleased smile, making Mac frown even
> harder. "Congratulations on your promotion! Haven't seen you here
in
> quite a few years. How's your job as liaison at the NCIS working
out
> after the years of top secret stuff?"
>
> "Thank you, sir. Yes, it's been a while, sir. I love my work, but
I'm
> missing the old days of action and courtroom. Not to forget all
those
> Tomcat flights to our investigations that you managed to arrange
for
> us sometimes. I can't tell you how much I loved those. Harm is the
> best pilot I have ever known and I thoroughly enjoyed flying in a
> Tomcat." the young woman beamed at the memories of those times. Mac
> was still scowling, but was momentarily overcome by sickness at the
> mere thought of flying.
>
> Cheggwidden noticed the frown that marred Mac's face and the lusty,
> leering expression of Lt. Cmdr. Brumby who was watching the young
> woman. Cheggwidden shook his head. **That man is like a dog with
> bones, but to him women were the bones. He goes after every pretty
> woman that comes into his sights. But he would have no luck with
this
> one. Harm would sooner send the smarmy Australian in the hospital
than
> let him anywhere near this woman. He was very protective of her,
not
> that she ever needed his protection.**
>
> Cheggwidden barely managed to keep in a laugh when the Lt. noticed
the
> looks Brumby was giving her and sent him a look filled with disgust
> and revulsion. **Amazing how similar she and Rabb are. They even
hate
> the same guy on the spot.**
>
> Suddenly Cheggwidden's eyes were drawn to the name tag on the young
> woman's uniform and a puzzled frown, followed by a realization
began
> to spread across his face.
>
> Just as he was about to ask, the cause of all the commotion entered
> the bullpen.
>
> Harm stopped at the sight of the slim figure of a fellow Rabb and
his
> face broke out in a joyous smile, which made Mac to scowl even
darker
> "Meg!"
>
> **Meg Rabb? Harm never mentioned her. What the hell is she to him?
**
>
> "So, you're here to...." Cheggwidden trailed off letting Meg
explain.
>
> "To kidnap my husband, sir." said Meg straight-faced.
>
> Mac's jaw dropped and rage filled her.
>
> Everyone went quiet at Meg's statement and watched in silence as
Harm
> came up to her, kissed her quickly, but with passion and love very
> obvious in the kiss.
>
> No one could believe that the Commander got married and no one knew
> about it. Brumby slinked away, sulking. He would've liked to make
this
> beautiful young woman a notch in his bedpost, but it was extremely
> obvious that Harm would sooner kill him than let that happen. It
was
> also obvious that Rabb had no intention of letting this woman go
for
> the rest of his life.
>
> The Admiral roared with laughter at that. "Damn. Why couldn't you
have
> married while you were still partners? Now I've lost 100 bucks to
> Senator Marion."
>
> Both Harm and Meg were staring at the Admiral in disbelief "You
bet on
> us, sir?"
>
> The Admiral sobered "Of course, it was easy money, or so I thought.
> You two always had enough chemistry to power the whole world for
200
> years. I was sure you would get married while you were still
partners,
> but then you, Meg, got reassigned so quickly and I lost hope for
you
> two. I am happy that you've made it despite all obstacles, you two
> definitely deserve it."
>
> Harm and Meg were stunned at the Admiral's words and their
meaning. He
> actually wanted them to get together while they were still in the
same
> chain of command.
>
> "When did you meet up again, anyway? And when did you get married?
> Cause I definitely know that you, Rabb, didn't take any time off
for a
> honeymoon." the Admiral pierced Harm with a stare.
>
> Meg decided to intervene "We got married last Saturday, sir and we
> wanted to wait with the honeymoon, because you are buried under
cases."
>
> The Admiral waved a dismissive hand "No problem, we'll manage. You
> will only get married this one time." Harm and Meg were surprised
at
> the Admiral's belief in the success of their marriage. "You've got
1
> month off starting now, Harm. Take your wife to some beautiful,
warm,
> tropical island paradise."
>
> "Thank you, sir. I think I can arrange it." They have completely
> forgotten that there were also other people listening in. Perhaps
it
> was better this way as it would cut down the rumors and
speculation.
>
> "So, when did you meet up again? Because I know you were reassigned
> back to JAG and DC only 3 months ago, Lt."
>
> Meg glanced at Harm, who looked into her eyes and they seemed to
have
> a discussion, which ended in some kind of agreement.
>
> "We met again 3 months ago, sir. I was just transferred back to DC,
> still living in the BOQ and looking for an aparment. I met Harm at
the
> Wall when I was visiting my father." This little fact was just
another
> revelation to Mac that Harm and Meg seemed to have a lot in common
and
> that they obviously had known each other for a lot of years and
were
> even expected by the Admiral to get married at some point.
>
> Harm took up the story. "I was talking to my father, cause I've
just
> made a big decision concerning something important. Then I turned
> around and there she was. Like it was some kind of sign. I walked
up
> to her, she recognized me, we decided to go somewhere to talk and
that
> was it."
>
> Harm let out the details of him seeing Meg and of her recognizing
him.
> When he noticed her he ran like a lunatic to catch up to her. And
when
> she saw him she did something inappropriate for two people in
> uniforms. She grabbed him in a hug and they didn't let each other
go
> for good 10 minutes.
>
> Meg continued the narration while Harm was caught in the
memories. "We
> went to Harm's apartment, talked and some long-thought dead
feelings
> came to light again. Both of us realized that these feelings were
the
> thing neither of us could move on from and that we still belonged
to
> each other. Harm said I could move in with him since I still didn't
> have my own apartment, it felt so right and natural that I just
> accepted and we've been together since. The decision to get married
> was so natural, easy and right, that we didn't hesitate. Neither
of us
> is religious so we didn't need to wait for an opening at a church
and
> a priest. We got married last Saturday at Grandma Sarah's farm with
> only our families present. And since you have a big case load at
the
> moment we decided to wait for a better time with our honeymoon."
>
> Cheggwidden was fascinated with the tale. It confirmed once again
what
> he always knew. These two were meant to be. They've found each
other
> at the exact moment when both were ready for more. He didn't mind
> losing that money. It made him long for what he had with his ex-
wife
> and he decided he would try and smooth things up again with her.
>
> "As I said, Lieutenant Rabb, nonsense. We can manage without your
> husband." no one noticed Mac's disdainful snort at the word
husband.
> "You have a month off and you should take that honeymoon. You too,
> Lt., I'll call your boss and arrange it. After all, you are still a
> JAG officer and thus under my command."
>
> "Thank you sir." chorused both.
>
> "Good, that's settled then." concluded the Admiral. "Now,
Commander,
> you quickly gather your files, give them to Tiner who will disperse
> them, secure your office and you can start your down-time
immediately."
>
> Harm did just that. While he was doing this Meg was sitting in the
> chair meant for clients and visitors, just observing him. She
hasn't
> seen him in an office environment for a long time and she
remembered
> the times they've spent together in their office with a fond smile.
> Those were good days, but the years they have before them will be
much
> better.
>
> ----------------------
>
> Outside in the bullpen work has been resumed. People were
discussing
> the recent revelations, but because Harm and Meg didn't hide
anything
> there wasn't any cause for speculation. The Admiral went back to
his
> lair and Mac just stood there, rooted to the spot.
>
> She couldn't believe it! Harm married? And it was her little plan
that
> was the cause of it. She recognized immediately what Harm meant
by 'a
> big decision concerning something important'. The timing was
right. It
> was when he stopped trying to rebuild their friendship and waited
for
> her to do something. But she, in all her wisdom, decided to make
him
> sweat some more. And because of the way she treated him he was in
the
> exact mindset and feelings that he could move on and leave her
behind.
> At the right time and in the right place for him to meet Meg again.
> And it was all her own fault!
>
> Right at that moment Harm and Meg came out of his office, laughing,
> Harm carrying his files to Tiner while Meg locked the office.
>
> The whole staff watched, including the Admiral, as the two
lovebirds
> met in the middle, took hold of each other's hands and left among
> farewells.
>
> At the double swinging door they met Bud, who greeted them, but
then
> turned around and stared at the closed doors with bulging eyes and
> gaping mouth.
>
> Slowly he turned around and approached Mac.
>
> "Was that Commander Rabb and Lt. Austin, Ma'am?" he asked her,
still
> in shock.
>
> "It was Harm, yes, as for the Lt.'s name I'm not sure. She is
> Lieutenant Meg Rabb now if it says anything to you." she wanted to
> know from Bud who the woman was and what were the chances of them
> getting divorced in the future.
>
> "Rabb? They got married!? I can't believe it! It took them long
enough."
>
> "What do you mean and who was she to Harm?" wanted Mac to know.
>
> "She was his partner before you, ma'am. I was on the Seahawk when
they
> where there a couple of times on investigations. The first time
they
> came there together a pool was set up as to when they would be
getting
> married, when they would be having kids, the gender of the kids,...
> you know, that sort of thing."
>
> Mac was stunned at that revelation. The fact that the gambling pool
> wasn't about the topics it was normally about, like first having
sex,
> getting together, breaking up, but about serious topics was
something
> new to her.
>
> "They were that serious?"
>
> "No, ma'am, they never broke the regs, but everyone and I mean
> everyone, who met them on investigations knew that it could never
be
> just an affair between them. When they would get together, it
would be
> for life and it would include the whole cliche. And it looks like
we
> were right. We just didn't know it would take them over 4 years.
Did
> you notice, Colonel, that when you, me and Commander Rabb visited
> places in our investigations together where he and Lt. Aus... Rabb
> were before together, that people, usually senior officers, pulled
the
> Commander away for a while?"
>
> Mac had always wanted to know what that was all about. "Yes, what
was
> that about? He never explained when I asked him."
>
> Bud decided to explain since the cat was out of the bag. "The first
> question they asked him was how he was. The second was if he and
Lt.
> Austin.... er, now Lt. Rabb got married already and if they had any
> kids. I've overheard a few of these talks. It was always the same."
>
> Mac couldn't believe what she was hearing, this was grave
news. "So,
> what you're telling me is that EVERYONE, from Senators to Seamen,
> expected them to get married even though they had known each other
for
> less than a year?"
>
> Bud looked at her seriously "Yes, ma'am, that's what I'm saying. We
> have all noticed how they behaved, how they constantly
subconsciously
> searched out each other's presence, their completely non-verbal
> communication, how they finished each other's sentences, how in
tune
> they were with each other,... It was like they were sharing one
soul
> and one mind. And definitely one heart, even if they didn't realize
> it. It was spooky." Bud grinned at that, only he getting the inside
> X-Files joke. When he realized Mac didn't get it, he
continued "There
> was even a rumor that they were a couple before they were partners
and
> some even believed they were already married. But then Lt.
Schonke's
> death happened and Harm's imprisonment."
>
> Mac looked surprised at that "Harm was in prison for her murder?"
>
> Bud looked grim "Yeah, he was framed. While the Cmdr. was in
prison,
> the Lt. kept visiting him. Someone higher up tried to get rid of
the
> Dream Team, thus the Cmdr. was framed and the Lt. was transferred
out
> of the country with no chance of objection. Rumor has it she was
just
> visiting the Cmdr. when some officers came to her, they tracked her
> down to the prison, gave her her transfer orders and actually
dragged
> her by the arms out of there. She didn't even get the time to pack,
> people were sent to pack her apartment up for her. And so she
> disappeared for these past 3 years. No one knew what happened to
her,
> where she was. By then I was already here. I've heard that once he
got
> out the Cmdr. was enraged. He used every connection he had to find
out
> where she was sent to, until he got a visit from some guys in black
> who warned him that if he didn't want to be 'taken care of' he
should
> cease his search for his partner. He didn't stop until he was
almost
> shot by some unknown sniper. Perhaps the two became too good and
got
> too close to someone important. Many of their cases had to do with
> corruption, espionage, treason and such. And now they are
apparently
> together again and meant to stay that way."
>
> Mac didn't know what to say after hearing this story. She knew from
> her observation of the happy couple that there was something more
> there, but she couldn't even guess it went so deep. She didn't
want to
> know, but she had to ask.
>
> "So, you think that there is no way for them to ever break up, now
> that they are together?"
>
> Bud looked her in the eyes and after a moment replied with complete
> conviction. "Ma'am there is more of a chance of the universe
ending in
> a Big Bang in the next five minutes than of them to ever stop
loving
> each other and break up."
>
> And with that Mac knew that she lost forever.
>
>
> END
>