"I do not usually make it a point to have someone banned from the
club, I don't care what you think about me. My little e-mail was not
supposed to 'work', as you put it, I was just telling it as it is.
As far as my group is concerned I have always said positive things
about Nisha, so what if I think she is gorgeous, if you have
something to say you should say it to me, instead of making me look
like an ass in a club that I really like to work with. I am a very
happy person, except when I read your posting and e-mail, my friends
on the other hand will always let me know if they think I do
something wrong, which I do take into consideration, so just because
they are my friends does not mean they always stick by me, I was very
proud of that picture of me holding a framed autographed photo of
Nisha, which she sent to me a few years ago, how could that
be 'creepy', enlighten me on that one. She has sent me other photos
of her that were taken by me and she signed them for me. I always
wonder what makes people think like you do of me. I am sorry to hear
about your friend, that sux. My brother was killed, too, when I was
13. I am 41 now. Why am I telling you this? Because I would like
you to know alittle more about me. If I scare people off from what
is it I say-is it because they are insecure about themselves, not
saying you, but to me you sort of fit that category, sorry, but that
is how I am taking it. People have complimented on my clubs, yes I
have more than one, I have an Artist club, I am a very happy and
settled person with an outstanding paying job, besides my artwork,
and that is how I am able to have a computer. I am not a sad person,
except when it comes to Mom-but already told you of that, I feel like
I have to tell you that, but still I see life as being harsh on
nature, harsh on people, and that is why I surf the Web to see if
there is anything else I can add to the club, that's it. But I feel
I do not have to prove anything to anyone. I only banned you from
the club because what you told me should have been told to me, not
the club, besides if anyone has a problem with me I would much rather
take it on as one on one, if you get my drift. You are the ONLY one
who ever told me I was obsessed and seemingly a stalker, that hurt,
this is not meant to 'work', this is the God's honest truth. See,
computers are limited, people really don't get to know each other
very well on the Web, anyone could be on the other end. Now, what
could I have possibly said that would be anything like what you read
in your late friend's murderer's letters, if I may be so bold to ask,
how am I going to do anything about my writing if I don't know what I
am doing to so-called scare people off?
See, everyone is different, just like you are a musician and I am a
Portrait Artist, you enjoy what you do, hopefully, and I enjoy what I
do.
By the way, the only reason for the club being small, as you put it,
is because there are alot of people who don't know who Nisha is, I am
only trying to get her more recognition, did you know she was
personal assistant on the Rosanne show? Did you see any of her
movies, besides "Chutney Popcorn"? She even invited me to her
premiere of "Cosmopolitan", after many e-mails, even my friend that I
took with me thought she was nice and sweet.
Anyway, later"