Hi,
Thanks lare, how are you? I havent talked directly to you in a while...
So hows life mine is good i am doing..........something........ for my b-
day lol. I tired tho I just got off of work and im pooped..... lol I wish that
jim was still alive to call me and wish me happy b-day that would be
gr8. I had hope that i could know him in person i have always admired
him. He was a good guy, smart too. I wish that he wouldent have died
so painfully, I wish i was there you know...... like family. I had always
(after my dad died) wished that jim would have adopted me as his own
(he couldent have kids of his own). I was sad to hear that, I felt bad. I
donno i guess that i miss everyone that i lost.... I hate how life goes on
after someone dies it sucks, I dont even want to have a b-day without
them you know???...... I wish......ya. I guess that enough wishes for a
life time lol.
I feel like cutting tonight.... I dont want to but it will get rid of my
sorrow, and i think it will help me accept this is my 8th b-day without
my dad..... I MISS HIM!!!! god dad was like jim, he could have made
you smile wether you wanted to or not. I wish daddy was here.... I miss
his smell and the way he had like 25 nick names for me. The one he like
to call me most was Tor-kins I loved that one so much..... GOD WHY
DID YOU TAKE HIM!!!! I mean i dont even have my picture of him to take
around with me. Its my daddy holding me and flashing and i love you
sign at the camera. I think he knew that he was going to die I mean we
talked about it alot and he always told me how much he loved me. I
would like to remember that most of all you know.... I just want a hug
from him on weds NO I need one from him, esspeacially since its my b-
day he owes me that for finding him dead!
I loved him, I need him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *sniffs* Sorry I needed to get that
out.
-Torri