Title: How you ever going to know 3/?

Author: Christen (purplehaysc@...) or if you want to get a
response during the week email me at 23405@...

Disclaimer: These Characters belong to Once and Again except anyone you
do not recognize.

Distribution: Take it, but let me know. If you have any of my other
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Comments: email me all you comments and suggestions. Ok and I just
wanted to tell a big thanks to one of my readers who suggested I write
this. J



(How you ever going to know by Garth Brooks)

How you ever gonna know
What it's like to live there
How you ever gonna know victory
How you ever gonna know
What it's like when dreams become reality
How you ever gonna know
How it feels to hold her
How you ever gonna know
What it's like to dance
How you ever gonna know
If you never take a chance



Jessie! Karen said shocked. What are you doing here? She asked still
in Henrys arms.

Maybe you should answer that question first. Jessie said smiling.

Well we um&. See& Karen started to say nervously.

She was having trouble walking so I agreed to carry her. Henry said
speaking up.

Sure, but the real question is why are you still holding her? Jessie
asked.

I was about to put her down, when you came in here. Henry said lying
as he put her down.

Its about time. Karen said sarcastically.

Jessie just tried not to laugh, Well then I guess I should tell you
thank you for helping my mother home.

Dont thank him. Karen said. So what are you doing here Jessie with
Katie?

I came home to change. Katie and I were planning on hanging out at her
house.

Did your dad say you could go?

Well I couldnt really find him or Lily but I just assumed. I mean it
is ok with you, right?

Yeah but call your dad and tell him where you are so he doesnt worry
and come home before it gets really dark.

Deal! Come on Katie, were off. Jessie said happily.

Be careful! Karen said as they started to leave.

We will! Bye mom, bye Henry. Jessie said as she left with Katie.

So why did you lie to my daughter? Karen asked Henry.

Would you of preferred I just let you mumble forever until you finally
told her that we kissed?

Well no but I dont like lying to her.

Then why didnt you tell her what really happened?

It wasnt the right time. Karen said lying.

Either that are youre never going to tell her. Henry said knowing the
truth.

Now why wouldnt I tell her?

Because you dont want to admit that anything happened.

Thats not true.

Then why did you try to run?

Because& Karen started to say nervously.

You dont want to be involved in a relationship with me for some reason.

Maybe I shouldnt.

You know you should. I know you know that but for some reason you dont
want to do it.

Why do you always assume you know me?

Because I seem to.

No, you dont! You dont know what I know or what I need!

And what you do? I highly doubt that. Because a half an hour ago you
were kissing me because you wanted to and a second later you suddenly
wanted nothing to do with me.

You kissed me!

I kissed you back because I like you and deep down I know you like me
to because I know you wouldnt have come out to the field just to see me.

There you go assuming you know me again. Stop it!

I will if you can be truthful with me.

I am! Im being truthful in telling you I dont want to be with you!
Karen said lying.

You know what have it your way! Im leaving. Henry said mad as he left.

As the door slammed, Karen started to cry.





This is nice. Lily said smiling as she took another sip of her water.

I thought you would like it. Rick said smiling

Its nice that we can get out our last bits of peacefulness before the
baby comes.

Right, babies arent peaceful, Im starting to remember that now.

Theyre not really peaceful ever.

True, none of our kids are.

I guess some things never change.

You think were ready for it, you know all the work?

Maybe not but I dont remember being ready for Zoe or Grace.

I guess you cant really ever be ready.

But we have a lot of help this time with the kids and all.

Rick laughed. Our kids? Theyre going to be completely useless.

You really believe that?

Of course. Our children have their own lives and they have made a point
always to show us that unless we force them to they will not do anything
to help us.

True so what do you want a boy or a girl?

Ive already got one of each. So Ill just take a happy and healthy
baby but I guess you want a boy.

Well I guess it would be nice to have a little boy but I also agree
that Ill be happy if the baby is just happy and healthy.

Ricks cell phone went off. Hello?

Dad, its Jessie. Im heading over to Katies, mom already gave me
permission and told me I had to be back by dark.

Ok where is your brother?

Hes at the house with Grace and Mady.

And Zoe?

Dont know, maybe shes with her grandmother or Judy? Jessie offered.
Where are you and Lily any way?

We went out to eat. We need to talk.

Ok, so is it ok if I go to Katies?

Fine, just dont stay out to late and call me if you go some wheres else.

Fine, bye I love you. Jessie said hanging up the phone.

Who was that? Lily asked.

Jessie, shes going over to Katies. Grace and Eli are with Mady at the
house& Rick started to say.

And Zoe?

She didnt know.





Shes finally asleep. Grace said happily as she came into the living
room where Eli was watching TV.

Good, so what are you going to do while shes sleeping? Eli asked.

I guess watch TV with you. Grace said sitting down next to him.

Ever heard of asking? Eli asked smiling.

Yeah but I think its over rated. Grace said as she grabbed the remote
and changed the station.

Hey I was watching that. Eli said annoyed.

You were watching reruns of Buffy and its that stupid one where the
swimmers turn into fish. The only thing that made it a good episode was
the locker scene. Grace said annoyed.

What ever. Eli said as Grace continued to flip through the stations,
but she stopped when a shrill cry was heard from the speaker.

She cant be awake! Grace said annoyed.

Yet she is. Eli said smiling.

But Ive tried everything. Eli, youve got to help me. Ive tired
everything and all I got was three minutes of sleep. Grace begged.

And what do you think I could do? Eli asked shocked.

I dont know: play the guitar for her? Truthfully, Eli I really dont
care how you get her to sleep. I just need you to get her back to sleep.

Fine, Ill try singing to her I guess. Eli said as he headed to her room.

Thank you. Grace said smiling as she sat down on the couch.

Eli went into the room they had Mady in and walked over to her. As she
saw him, she stopped crying. He reached down and picked her up. Mady,
are you ok? He asked. The little baby just cooed back to him. All you
wanted was to be held I see. Eli said smiling. How about if I hold
you, you give your big sister a break and go to sleep? She needs it.
Eli pleaded with the baby. Your sister Grace has been exhausting her
self just for you. The least you could do is lie down for a second. The
baby just cooed the more Eli talked. Yeah your sister Grace is really
something special but I bet you know that already dont you. Youre
really lucky to have her as an older sister ever if you realize it or
not you are. We all are. Though dont ever tell your sister this but I
even like having her around sometimes. Now how about I sing to you? Eli
asked smiling as he started to sing to Mady.

Grace smiled as she turned up the volume on the speaker.





So are you ready? Katie asked Jessie as she put the car in park.

I dont know. I mean what if something happens? Jessie asked worried.

Were in an abandoned parking lot, Jessie. Nothing can happen.

Can you promise me that?

Katie smiled. Yes, now get in the drivers seat now! Katie said as she
got out of the car and got in the passenger seat.

You sure you want me to do this? Jessie asked Katie as she put on her
seatbelt.

Just start the car! Katie said smiling.

Ok. Jessie said as she started the car.

Ok now put the car in drive.

As Jessie started to change great the car started to roll. Ok were
moving! Jessie said panicked.

Then hit the brake

Which one is the brake?

The one on the left.

Jessie slammed on the brake and the car jumped. Why did that happen?

Because you slammed on the brake. Youre supposed to barely touch it.

You didnt tell me that.

I thought that was understood. Katie took a deep breath and said.
This is going to be a long day.





You want to call him dont you? Either that or you want to call Rick
and tell him you cant take the job. Judy said to Sam who was staring
out the window.

Whos him?

Jamie, you wont to try to explain this all to him but I think you also
want to not take the job.

But its a great job.

But hes your son and I know even though you dont want to admit it,
you love him and dont want to lose him and going to Australia with me
would be losing him.

But it would give us a great start together.

But youd lose your son and no start is great enough to lose your son.

Ive left before with out him, you know?

I know but now& now I dont think you want to and you dont think that
Rick will understand because Rick doesnt see you with Jamie, he still
thinks that your one of those hands off dads.

Rick would understand. Sam said lying.

Look the way hes sees a father, is the way he sees him self. Youre
not him, you have your own way and in your own way youre a father to
Jamie, no matter if Rick sees that or not. Plus I dont think theyll
ever move.

Why?

Because theres no way that Jake or Karen will let them.





So what did Grace say? Let me guess the baby is fine and that youre
worrying too much? Jake asked as Tiffany came back into the bedroom.

Yeah Im just worrying too much, our child is being watched by Eli and
Im worrying too much. Tiffany said sarcastically as she got into bed.

Shes being watched by Grace not Eli. Jake corrected her.

No, I just talked to Grace and she told me that Mady is with Eli, just
Eli.

Why?

Apparently he puts her to sleep, she likes him.

Eli? Mady likes Eli?

Hes the only one that can get her to sleep.

Never would have guessed that.

Me either but at least shes sleeping.

Grace is still there right?

Yeah, said shes listening in on the speaker and she sounded happy so I
think everything is ok there.

I sure hope so.